A 80 after the bisexual S enthusiasts confession: I was a "virgin" part II

His parents are double workers, working hours fixed, so give us a great convenience to create a child: as long as his parents did not go home, we can do anything in his home.

His family bedroom has an old sweeping broom, his dad often take this hit him, I want to try to be beaten taste, so I picked up a sweeping broom pumping their own look, feeling the risk factor is not imagined so much, so from the test 

At the beginning, we play more and more. In addition to being beaten by his broom, we also found a wire hood wrapped in plastic leather. When we whipped, both of us were undressing, touching each other's bodies, hugging each other, like caressing a wounded little animal, and that was exactly what I had wanted.

We also talked about the insertion of the topic, but never been inserted, we seem to have no particular interest in the site of the anus. We touch each other, embrace each other, pretend rape threw each other, rub each other's penis, beat each other, but these are irrelevant to insert. I do not agree with some people to define homosexuality as anal sex, homosexuality is what kind of gender you like, rather than what kind of parts like.

The first winter vacation, I started to write the winter vacation and his third fight on the grounds of the trip, did not think this time, resulting in my long years of shadow.

I vaguely remember that afternoon, I put the shoulder on the radiator, paste the left shoulder feel no feeling, put the right shoulder also posted up, so after five minutes, I looked at the wall of the clock to fight the pain, 

He side to let me give up, while holding a small mirror as I bite the face of the face to increase the pleasure, when the shoulder away from the radiator that moment, I scared silly - a large black and white scar, the most surface The skin has begun to loose, I am afraid, anger, hate him, that everything is because of his negligence was caused. But many years later, I realized that this hate, doping too much can not tell the unknown love.

This little scar, for me means a series of changes, forcing me to think about physical and sexual exploration, thinking about what is right and what is wrong. 

So, I began to contact the sex education, sexual behavior of the books, want to understand the culture and homosexuality. But as a student in the late 90s, can receive from the books related knowledge is limited, until later read the book of Li Yinhe, I gradually read the process for their own to find a psychological support.

If the "virgin virgin" has not yet become a stigma, I may also be a sense of "virgin" - I did not have any blood exchange with anyone, did not touch anyone's vagina - 

I pay attention Health and safety, has always been across the cover of the first masturbation occurred when the specific has been remember, just remember that time I sandwich pillow get on the ground, by friction, the next experience erection. 

Completely sure that she is bisexual is a teenager, but if I can choose my own sex, I want to be a girl - although I never hate myself a boy, but I want to be a girl. 

Perhaps the impact of childhood experience, I grew up to feel a lot of men unreliable, I do not want to be their kind of people, I hope to be like an avatar, 

there is an opportunity to become a girl at any time. I do not want to do surgery by surgery to change, even if the surgery, the no or not, such as fertility and menstruation and so on.

I am a narcissist and nudist, and that is what we usually call SM - a sexual activity through painful sexual pleasure, which includes both physical pain (such as the pain caused by whipping), and The spirit of the pain (such as humiliation, domination caused by the pain of feeling), sadness also includes mourning and abuse of two categories, 

and I tend to the latter, for me, compared to the line, More is to do outside the genitals to explore, and sometimes after the ejaculation continue to be hit, is to enjoy the experience of pure pain after being caressed feeling.

Sibling circle has its own culture, but also the circle of different circles within the mainstream culture, and I belong to one of the more marginal class. Usually when a person into a small circle, it is easy to be the circle of mainstream culture, and I am more vigilant of this situation. 

I do not like my mind to be controlled by the capital or relationship of a field, so keep the proper distance. A lot of playing abuse of masculine temperament short hair male, similar to the military image, and I always like to keep short hair, preference star temperament. We usually in the group to say their preferences, to find suitable for playing the object of childbirth, one to one; 

sometimes there will be more people beat, many people generally play in a formal place, up to only one person bleeding, to avoid potential Hepatitis B and AIDS threat. Beijing Fengtai District, there is a place where we usually meet the line, but I was not interested there, because most of the middle-aged people.

There are many patterns of sadness, not ladder classification. Some people like the slave mode, some people like excrement related, some people have violent fantasy, some people like to play animals, some people like to torture the anus, and some feel handcuffs wallet wax is also a love There are a lot of patterns ...

I am more M, and I play a lot of abuse are also M. Because I am more sensitive to the power relationship, it is difficult to power relations as a toy, so it is not and S get along. If in a situation, there is a sense of oppression or inequality, such as the slave mode, I will instinctively make some resistance, deliberately asked him to construct the main slave mode destroyed.

Sex for me, nothing more than a game, there are a lot of play, I will pick their favorite. Sex is no different from watching movies, playing chess, no need to specialize it, and others to determine the relationship is to see the feeling is not entirely sex, and sometimes irrelevant. 

If you can and TA live together, even if the problem encountered impotence, but also no big deal, is the most important to accompany.